Saturday, Jun. 05, 2004 - 12:20 p.m.

Yes, today is good a day.

With all the papers I have left to write and only have 2 days to do so, I was feeling incredibly stressed out yesterday. Just about everything was making me either start screaming or crying. I could hardly stand myself.

Then Sabbath struck. What a relief. I could stop doing staring at my computer screen, and take a break and have a real reason for doing so.

I think part of the reason why I have waited so long to do everything this quarter is just becuase it is such an overwhelming amount I can't get my mind around and start anything.

Last night I was feeling like, wow, maybe I should just do some studies anyways (even tho I never do this and would have felt funny about it) then Lamont called and asked if he could come over and talk with me. Of course I said yes. Sooo he was here until almost 2 in the morning when I finally took him home.

That was so nice. It's going to be strange with him not being here next year. Of course we didn't spend a whole heap of time together this year or anything, especially with Lydwin not being around, but just knowing that you can is a comfort. So, with him being super far away, that will be really sad. We're going to go to lunch on Tuesday. That will be cool. I'll have just finished my last final, and it will be too late to turn in papers at that point, so the stress better be easin off. Maybe I'll even be able to laugh.

Dad is going to be here just a couple of hours. I tried to warn him that I don't have time to spend with them after sundown tonight...he said he's going to stay out of my hair. I feel bad. I love my dad so much, I don't want him to take it personally. He said he's not offended and he remembers how it was... I hope he's not just saying that.

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